January

"When I have a terrible need of - shall I say the word? -religion-...  then I go out and paint the stars."
-Vincent Van Gogh

These are some of things I have been thinking about in the midst feeling sick more than 1/2 the time since November...

 January~
 I will begin to:
~Follow my passion~
~Set my intention~
~Practice my Passion~
~Surround myself with Art~
~Create the passion in my art of my intention~

there is more...so much more, and I will write on this and expand on it after a bit more thought about it all.

2011

In 2011 I am going to attempt to write at least a little something everyday, or at least a few times a week.  This in itself is by no means a New Years Resolution.  I do not believe in New Years Resolutions (for myself anyways.)
I do however; believe in hopes, dreams and, desires.  As such, it is my desire to journal on a regular basis this new year of 2011, as well as, to work towards better consistent health and well being.

And now for a short rant that really has nothing to do with what I just wrote above:

1/2/11 yesterday was 1/1/11 - repetition of numbers as they appear in date, time and nature -  has always intrigued me - which is quite ironic/funny in a way - considering I have never really felt comfortable or liked numbers very much.  This amuses me.  I suppose that what interests me so much in these repetitions of numbers is that I seriously wonder if there might be some form of significance - spiritually, metaphysically, bodily, life experience wise -  that might just brim on the experience of the mysteries of life.  I mean, Astrology and Numerology are all about this and I have always enjoyed working with these two forms of  acquiring knowledge.  I believe there is a definite significance in these things and such related things...

(disclaimer - the above rant concerning numbers should by no means be taken too seriously! lol)

A Hazy Shade of Purple

~New Years Eve Night
 hazy shades of purple dust over the sky 
i am feeling gray~

~I mourn for losses of 2010 and feel unsure of 2011
I see the possibilities yet want to flee from the unknown
lost in oblivion~

~So often I am like a lost little girl
not knowing where to hide
not knowing who to confront -
- to make the thoughts that mingle with reality
become dreams realized~

~Shadows dance in the wind 
as though they were attached to trees
like leaves.  I follow them and embrace
the beauty of the unseen - knowing the dance
is within me too~

~Like the hazy shade of purple dusting the night sky
the creation of my imagination fills even the dullest of the
haze~


-ASJ- 2011 
(copyright 2011)